This is the first time I have posted and have been reading what others have written for the last few weeks, I was diagnosed with depression in the beginning of December and have been taking Lexapro since then, I feel much better, I'm not snapping at my husband or the kids any more, I'm starting to do more on my own and seem to be laughing more. It's sad when you notice that you are laughing, I use to take it for granted until I noticed I had stopped and I couldn't remember when I had laughed last. Anyway, I still have lingering insecurities where my husband is concerned, does anyone else have insecurity as a sign or symptom of depression? or is this unique to me and maybe I'm insecure and depressed.
I can't convince him that things are going to change with us, he doesn't see how things are ever going to get better and wants to seperate so I can get myself back together. He wants me to become a person again and not a dependent, submissive(for lack of a better word) wife. I wasn't like this when we first started dating, I had my own life and friends and interests. I guess what I want to know is, if this is the depression or is from me?
How to I concentrate on myself when all I have ever done is worried about everyone else? I have a job, and I am in school to get my degree, 3 kids and all I want is my marriage to get better. If I concentrated to my school work like I do my marriage I would have my Phd. by now! Everyone keeps telling me, incliuding my husband, they say take care of yourself and everything else will work out. Nobody can tell me how to start. Anyone out there have any real advice? Maybe someone else has gone through this.
Thanks for any advice. :confuse:
