Thank you everyone. You told me everything that I need to hear. My anxiety is more over this health problem and upcoming surgery rather than being a generalized issue. I think I would be more concerned about myself if I was not anxious about surgery. I do admit that I have let this one situational episode of anxiety get way out of control. I am not generally anxious about everything. I do, however, realize that in the past when confronted with anxiety-producing situations, I would snuggle myself up in a warm, hazy cloud of cigarette smoke. Somehow it gave me the strength to get through whatever the situation was that was concerning me. I think all those years of smoking prevented me from learning how to face my fears head on in a healthy manner.
I so miss the calm that Nic brought, no matter how temporary that calm was. So far, I have been unable to find a suitable substitute. Maybe there isn't one? Maybe normal, non-nic addicts don't require a crutch for calm? Y
up, 258 days and still learning. I will be discussing my anxiety with my docs at appointments on Monday and Tuesday. Once I am told what to expect, I'm sure I will feel some better. It's just going to be very difficult to keep Nic away until then. I really don't want to smoke. Today I choose not to smoke. I will take it one day at a time. I will post again if I feel I am about to lose it.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/16/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 258
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,104
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1702.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 25 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 50