So, you aren�t happy with how this quit is turning out and want to relapse so you can try again later thinking you�ll do it better the next time? Man, that sounds familiar. Someone has already done that and it seems to have worked for that person. Maybe it will for you, too.
But if past conversations are any indication, your issue isn�t the same one as that quitter�s. If memory serves, your challenge is that you can�t make any non-smoking friends. Seems to be true � the only guy you find worth dating is a smoker. All his friends (and by default your only friends) are smokers, too. And the reason is that non-smokers don�t want to be around you, won�t like you.
I�ve tiptoed around this in the past, trying to not be supportive, but no more. Here�s the truth as I see it. You are convinced non-smokers won�t like you because, deep down, you don�t want them to. Your junkie has never been fully under control. So you have never truly done what is necessary to befriend or open up to any. You say �they won�t like me� and go away. Finally, the loneliness gets too great and you turn to the only people you believe will put up with you - smokers. And, sure enough, you are right! Looky, you got a smoker boyfriend and all his smoking friends to boot. And now you�re crying out because your quit is threatened. Go figure! Sheeeee.
So go ahead and relapse. Maybe it will work for you. Maybe you won�t really be happier as a smoker. Maybe you�ll see that it wasn�t the [u]grass[/u] that was greener, but the clothes the people around your bed are wearing; the doctors and nurses attending to your IVs and breathing tubes. Maybe, hopefully, you�ll eventually decide you want to quit permanently for you, instead of temporarily to satisfy some external need.
Whatever you decide, I�ll support, Pam. If you choose to give up on yourself, I�ll give up on you, too. If you choose to fight, and I mean [u]really[/u] fight on [u]all[/u] fronts, I�ll be right at your side as I have been for other true warriors. Your decision.
Shevie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 539
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,792
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2048.2
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 100 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Sec
