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18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 3908

Changing Not once have I been jealous of anyone risking Lung Cancer... I am jealous of those here with many years stopping behind them.... Phil [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 211 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,435 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �1107.75 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 42 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 47 [B]Seconds:[/B] 46

18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 2838

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.............. I think I smell smoke......Who's smoking in here? Yep....I've been guilty as well. Sometimes I think I smell smoke when I smell something that REMINDS me of smoking...ever have that happen? Yeah....I once was going thru a rough patch and a friend lit one up in front of me and I kept thinking "Yeah...I can take her...kick her butt and steal her friggin cig..." I then got in my car and bit my steering wheel to keep from going to the store....Do whatever it takes...just don't smoke! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 179 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,994 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1432 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 6 [B]Seconds:[/B] 27

18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1155

Phew. I'm glad to hear that I'm not the only one with these messed up thoughts. It helps to hear that others have experienced these thoughts and moved on. I'm keeping on keeping on! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/24/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 11 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 403 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $71.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 14 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26

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18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1155

Imallclear - I knew I'd hear something like this from you! You're right, I know. My thinking just gets really messed up sometimes. But, I'm working on it and fighting the fight! ;p [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/24/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 323 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $65 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 42 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17

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18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1155

Okay, I have to admit something, and I know that I'll probably get lectured for this, but... When I read posts about people relapsing, I feel jealous...jealous that they got to smoke. I know this is counter-everything that I know rationally. I know that this is addictive thinking. I know how destructive this is, etc. But I feel the need to admit this experience as it keeps happening. I'm wondering if anyone else has ever experienced this? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/24/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 321 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $65 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 41 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17

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18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1155

Thank you everyone! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/24/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 323 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $65 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 44 [B]Seconds:[/B] 20

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18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 852

OMG Gonna- I rememeber hearing about the steering wheel biting! Changing, I do remember feeling that exact same way. Mine was when I noticed my husband relapsed. It wasn't fair!!!! But...... this choice was mine. I make this decision to not smoke. One moment at a time........ Now, it's kind of hard to remember how real those jealousy feelings were. I have finally reached the point that the smell of a cig grosses me out. I think it was when I went to Las Vegas - OMG EVERYONE smokes there! And there is not enough ventilation, so all you do is breathe in the second-hand smoke. I could not do that on a daily basis!!! Wow- off subject, sorry..... You are not alone. Many of us yearned for just one more.......... But it is always that. One more. One more. One more. One more. One more. Take care of yourself, and make sure you reward yourself for those awesome 10 days!! A great reward just might make some of your jealousy turn around! 4my2girls [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 367 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 11,010 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1200.09 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 29 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 44 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3

18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 2462

I did feel this. I felt very angry with my husband at first, because he could smoke and I couldn't. Once I admitted that to myself, I saw how ridiculous it was and the feeling went away. I think that will be true for you, too. Rusty :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/13/2004 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 813 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 22,786 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2845.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 113 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 26 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53

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18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 763

Really and truly, when I quit and saw someone smoking or slipping??? I felt such a satisfaction at the CONTROL that I was able to maintain. no loosing it for me....my quit was a lot about getting in CONTROL of my life. I never was jealous of the smokers, not even on the first day. I know, I'm weird :blush: Katy [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/4/2002 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1888 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 75,552 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $10761.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 249 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59

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18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 12049

This feeling will change! Give yourself the opportunity to repair yourself and see the difference it can make. You body will thank you for it! Josie ______________________ The SSC Support Team

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