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19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1155

dswill, Hang in there. I know how you're feeling...I really, really do. You don't need to feel this way. I highly encourage you to make an appt with a therapist or MD for meds. You deserve it! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/3/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 67 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $14 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 11 [B]Seconds:[/B] 12

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19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 12

Hi Shelly I'm Crystal, and have just quit smoking (sunday). I have also suffered chronic clinical depression for 8 years, so i DO understand a bit about what you're going through. The withdrawal from nicotine will be emphasising your moods, so things that were perhaps a cause for minor concern whilst you were a smoker, now appear to be a cause for extreme anxiety, panic, and depression. THIS WILL PASS. The BEST thing YOU can do to overcome these feelings is to increase your self-esteem and pride. This will battle the depression head-on....you will start to believe that you ARE strong enough to make it, and in the grander scheme of things, the day-to-day panics actually don't matter as much as you think they do. I am not in any way belittling your problems, I am merely asking you to look at yourself, and at what you are doing, and to be proud of it. Because you should be. You are doing AMAZINGLY, and yes, you feel crap at the moment, but your SPIRIT is healing with every breath you take. You are 'cleaning' yourself from the inside out. And that's something to smile about, dont you think? Sorry if i've come over all self-righteous and 'happy'...read some other of my posts from yesterday - they are the EXACT opposite! But i wanted to reply to you - you CAN DO THIS. I'm rooting for you hun, keep the strength. Crystal xxxxxxx

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19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 537

Hey Shelly... All better today? Stop in at the SSC as well and post, maybe that'll help you some. Take care, Ron [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/12/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 27 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 957 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $182.25 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 5

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 537

Hey Shelly!! Im sorry I missed you on IM. --Darn fire calls-- I hope your doing better this morning. Be strong. Focus on all the good things. :-) Were all here for you! Hell week is almost over. C'mon girl, don't let us down! Ron :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/12/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 25 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 888 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $168.75 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 20 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 133

Hi, I�m back, it has been a long day but I�m hanging in there! Parts if me feel so strong and others so weak.. So I never know if I�m coming or going. I guess what is hitting me the hardest right now is I DO NOT WANT TO FAIL THIS TIME, (I have never made it 6 days before without cheating, and I'm doing it this time.) I really do feel I�m fighting for my life. If, I mean WHEN I win this I know I will be so proud of myself. Crystal, I wanted to say THANK YOU for your words, they brought a lot of tears, but you are so right. It really made me think, I CAN do this! Thank you all so much, I know I would of never made it this far with out everyone of you. And A Special Thanks to my IM Buddies! Until Tomorrow Shelly [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/30/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 6 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 138 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $19.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 6 [B]Seconds:[/B] 57

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 133

Hi! Bad morning! Had a real good day yesterday, I woke up this morning in a deep dark hole of depression.. I can�t think straight.. I cry, panic, cry, panic.. I don�t even think I want a CIG it is all the other things creeping up on me. I read some posting this morning and I know I�m not the only one, but right now I feel I�m in this deep dark hole all alone. I checked out the 2 sites Melanie the Support Specialist talk about www.paniccenter.net and www.depressioncenter.net and I think they might be helpful. I think I can handle the not smoking but it is all the other stuff that is piling up. I think I will go take a nap and maybe that will help. Check in later when my typing fingers are working better. Thanks for listening.. ~Shelly~ [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/30/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 6 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 133 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $19.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 52

Good Morning Shelly, That damn depression that sneaks up on you. It sucks but it does go away. And I'm afraid it may come back. But the strength you have developed with your quit will get you through! You have gone 6 wonderful days without a smoke. That is a great accomplishment. You deserve a gold star for that alone! Stick with it. Even when the elephant is sitting on your chest.....if you haven't experience that yet, you probably will. And when the nicodemon is sitting on your shoulder telling you that you felt better when you were smoking just remember that you control him, he doesnt control you! Keep it going...I have lots of faith that you can pull this off. Keep coming here!!!!! It really works!! Keep the faith in yourself...you really can move mountains so smoking should be a breeze. M [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/6/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 31 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 847 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $186 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 46 [B]Seconds:[/B] 20

19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 300

Hi Shelly. I'm so sorry you are having a bad day. The worst week is almost over. It does get better!!! Hang in there, be stong and keep busy. I would like to see you succeed. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/6/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 58 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 587 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $145 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28

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19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 989

DS Congratulations for six days. That is huge. I can remember so well almost a year ago when I made the same decision that you are making right now. To beat this addiction and to stop cheating and lying to myself. I will sugar coat it and tell you that it was easy. In fact it was the hardest thing I ever did, and my moods this year have been the most difficult I can ever remember. Still I would not trade this quit for anything. The freedom is delicious, the pride is incredible, and the sense of accomplishment is amazing. I now wonder what in the heck took me so long to let go of this addiction. I too was so scared that I never could do it and I was so afraid of failure. But, this is doable. It really is. Try not to take anything you are thinking or feeling too seriously for awhile. Just keep your eyes on making it through the next five minutes as a non-smoker. It is easier, believe me, to reach the summit if you keep your eyes on the trail right in front of you than on the top of the mountain that right now seems sooooo hard and far away. This trail, this journey you are on is truly an adventure. When it is possible, welcome each stage of withdrawal as a sign of freedom and healing and rejoice! When it is not possible, and you are overcome with depression and despair, please know that it will pass. It takes alot of blind faith that it will get better, but I can assure you that it does. Believe in the wisdom of those that went before you and stay very close to this site. The folks here, I believe, saved my life. Best wishes. Carole [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/15/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 356 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,901 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1246 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 49 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 52 [B]Seconds:[/B] 37

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19 years ago 0 +0 / -0 12049

Shelley, This is normal. Do check out our sites and please check with your doctor to rule out anything medical. Keep Strong, Josie _____________________ The SSC Support Team.

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