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15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 98

hey...

i feel you... i feel good one day and poop the next...

Lolly's article basically sums up my ride...but i do agree with skates that i also this round, when i have that random crave- whoa where did that come from- i stop look see what did it...sometimes, i even tell someone (it sounds odd saying it aloud my bf looks at me like i am nutty...dang non smoker...)

Today even, I took a whiff of my perfume that i used to drown myself in to make people think i didn't smoke...it made me want to run out and smoke...so i stopped realized that thought...put down the perfume (didn't dwell) and moved on to whatever else i was doing... i realized and then i stopped. You can do this you have made it this far- all these others did it...it's your turn. (and way to go post and get the support help that you need)

PS... without a bump... i had a smoke on day 45...i kept my stats cause i kept going but still even now, i regret it and feel awful- and yes even after 1 i had the three day withdrawls...don't- you get nothing from it but having to look myself in the eye and say oh you have 90 days minus that one...

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 3/12/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 90
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 2,250
Amount Saved: $1,125.00
Life Gained:
Days: 7 Hrs: 0 Mins: 32 Seconds: 33

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 2778

Hey Steelroots!

Hang tough!!! Keep your eyes on the prize!!! You have got that little sucker on the run right now and all you need to do is tell it to be gone! Cigarettes were NOT your best friend and I don't believe that part of you REALLY wants to smoke! You are going through the blahs right now and what you really need is a great reward for getting through 2 months smoke free! Think of something really fun that you can do this weekend to celebrate your 2 months!!! Setting up rewards for every dog-gone milestone is one way of keeping psyched up and maintaining that Positive Mental Attitude!

Wake up every morning and celebrate the fact that you kicked the demon's ash yesterday and commit to doing it all over again today! You ARE accomplishing something great so far, and that in itself should have your smile beaming all day long! You are winning the battles and the nico-demon is losing EVERY DAY!!!

Many of us know what you are going through and there are many threads here about going through the blahs with ways to help you cope! Use the search function and read and learn!

Keep smiling every day... you are doing this!!!

Jim

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 3/5/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 824
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 20,600
Amount Saved: $3,399.00
Life Gained:
Days: 148 Hrs: 0 Mins: 34 Seconds: 13

Quit Meter

$47,595.00

Amount Saved
Quit Meter

Days: 1162 Hours: 0

Minutes: 8 Seconds: 11

Life Gained
Quit Meter

6346

Smoke Free Days
Quit Meter

190,380

Cigarettes Not Smoked

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1209

Hi Steel, Hope you are doing much better. It is chatter in you mind. the addiction only.

Did you make a little list of your reasons to quit? pull it out and look at it, or photos of your loved ones.

Think of yourself as a non-smoker.. think of how nice it is to be able to get close to someone, or give them a hug, and know you dont smell like an old ash tray

Stay strong.. Remember there is NO such thing as one.. not one puff, not one cigarette.. one leads to ~ there is never enough.

sending good vibes and warm thoughts,

Bonnie

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 5/7/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 31
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 527
Amount Saved: $105.40
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 3 Mins: 25 Seconds: 46

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1904

How is it going today, steelroots?
My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 5/1/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 400
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 11,200
Amount Saved: $4,760.00
Life Gained:
Days: 45 Hrs: 0 Mins: 31 Seconds: 6

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 639

Steelroots....you are doing it. Strap in a little tighter as you move through this turbulence. Dig around the site as there are several posts regarding chatter. Your resolve will see you through!!!! Keep the Quit

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 1/19/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 502
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 15,060
Amount Saved: $3,953.25
Life Gained:
Days: 85 Hrs: 2 Mins: 16 Seconds: 16

Quit Meter

$54,496.13

Amount Saved
Quit Meter

Days: 1259 Hours: 0

Minutes: 55 Seconds: 25

Life Gained
Quit Meter

6025

Smoke Free Days
Quit Meter

180,750

Cigarettes Not Smoked

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 2508

Good Morning Steelroots,

Congratulations on your 55 days that is something to be really proud about. I am sorry to hear you have been having a hard time of it the last few days. I know I only have 6 days this time around so far. I have had longer quits and wish I had never had just one puff again. It may feel like you want one but you really don't want one. You don't want to start over again and be hating yourself because you had one. Their is a web site you might want to look at its called Whyquit.com. They have free books and videos and one of the video is called I want one. I have watched this video again today and it always helps me when I start thinking I want one. Give it a look see. It just might help you.

Rose

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 5/30/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 6
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 240
Amount Saved: $72.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 21 Mins: 22 Seconds: 24

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 2606

Hi Steelroots,

Thank you for sharing with us about your struggles. You have receive some really great support and feedback from your fellow members. Read through the comments and be inspired to stay strong. Everyone's quit is different, some experience their worst cravings during hell week, others a few months in. Either way, the important thing is to remain strong and keep fighting the good fight. Write down you reasons for quitting and keep this list on you at all times. When you feel conflicted, look at this list and be reminded of why you are doing this. Know that we are always here for you. Keep working hard, and post often!

Samantha, Health Educator

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 251

You are on the right track steelroots! It is like a wave or a rollercoaster. Sometimes you feel you are going one step forward two steps back. But, you know what? It is getting better. The cravings are there every now and then but they are further more apart and not as strong... It takes sometimes everything you have - and some - to keep from having that first puff... But it is well worth it. The alternative is to go back to square one... And even though you might think now "it was not that bad"... truth is that it is not an eazy breezy time either... So, if you can, go through this period as you did at the beginning: regain all your focus and do not let your guard down yet. You can do this. One day at a time.

Keep the quit

Cristina

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 10/5/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 243
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 8,505
Amount Saved: $1,105.65
Life Gained:
Days: 23 Hrs: 2 Mins: 32 Seconds: 10

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 37

Hi Steelroots...even though I'm one month behind you, I remember the 7-8th week very well in past quits. It was usually mt breaking point and I would have "just one"...and then another, and so on...then before I knew it, I would be smoking again. I tried to figure out why I would relapse everytime right around that time. I think and believe I have figured it out now. I do agree 100% with Lolly and Brenda, that freakin' nicodemon is pest and sneaks up ut of no where. It's annoying and let's be honest, it shakes us up to our core.

I noticed one other thing too and I think this is what bothers me even more. We work soooo bloody hard at quitting and go through such a change and struggle and test our will power minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day and to people looking at us, we basically look the same. There isn't a visible reward. You can't physically see your lungs getting cleaner or the toxins leaving your body, you just know that they are. Other healthy life style changes you can see...eating better and exercising, you lose weight or tone up...something you can see. Me personally, I fnd that a bit frustrating. So I guess what I'm saying, if I dieted for 7-8 weeks, I see a change in the mirror...and get compliments and feel proud. With not smoking for 7-8 weeks, I have to really focus on the pride I have (and plan on doing so when I get there) for quitting and to really celebrate the wins everytime to replace or substitute the absense of a mirror to show the changes.

I hope that makes sense and helps you figure out your 7-8th week.

Skates

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 5/10/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 26
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 520
Amount Saved: $208.00
Life Gained:
Days: 2 Hrs: 8 Mins: 23 Seconds: 29

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 71

Congratulations for your 55 days. Just think, 5 days until you have 60, that is awesome. I know that for me the first few months were tough. I needed to sleep more, couldn't handle a lot of stress and felt like my body and nervous system belonged to someone else. I do agree with Lolly's article that it was my body trying to heal. I had tried to quit unsuccessfully many times. This time one thing I did different was that when a crave came on, I didn't run from it. I tried to become aware of what my body was feeling during the crave and breath slowly almost embracing the crave. Somehow by not trying to avoid the sensations, I began to feel less fearful and more in control. I hope that helps.

I think it is great that you are reaching out on this forum. Best wishes!

Dawn

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 5/31/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 370
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 12,950
Amount Saved: $2,913.75
Life Gained:
Days: 48 Hrs: 13 Mins: 34 Seconds: 36

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